Linking with twinkle in the eye for Flash Blog Friday and with some grace for Flog ya blog Friday
How much has your childhood/upbringing affected you? do little things trigger memories and make you feel how you did back then?
I won't go too much into my childhood as yet. It wasn't thaaaat bad but it wasn't super great. My sister and I were raised by just our mum as our dad died a few months before I was born. She had no family support at all as she moved to Australia from Germany, 2 years before my sister was born. So you can imagine she felt alone and turned to what she could for comfort.
Lately DH has been falling asleep all the time right on bed time for the kids. We all sit in the loungeroom watching the great ABC 2 for kids. Can NOT escape In the Night Garden as bub is obsessed. Every time i look over DH is asleep. Does it piss me off? bloody oath it does. i can't get what is so hard about staying awake. His excuse is that In the Night Garden is boring. Yeh well we dont' all find travelling by Ninky Nonk or ponking in the Pinky Ponk too thrilling but as adults we aren't really there to watch the show but more be there for the kids.
In the Night Garden video
So why am I pissed off?? I really don't know. I can't pin point it. Part of it is the feeling of abandonment (yeh i know , silly, he is in the same room as me)I feel let down by him too. I am not saying he is letting me down because he isn't as he is totally oblivious to my irrational thoughts. I feel let down in that he has juts thought of himself and thinks it's ok to just drop off to sleep whenever he wants. Forget the fact that i am the one up 2-3 times a night and more often than not wake up in a different bed. Imagine if we both just decided to drop off to sleep just because we find In the Night Garden boring. Well we couldn't it would be neglectful leaving the kids awake by themselves at the ages they are. And there is that feeling!!
Childhood memories coming back. Our mother always falling asleep. No matter where you looked she was asleep. She'd lay on our bed while we were playing....then she'd be asleep. She'd be watching tv...then be asleep. You get up and get ready for school...she's asleep. so while i probably didn't feel neglected back then i think back now how it was and with dh doing it i realise it was almost a form of neglect. she should have been there for us. not asleep all the time.
so in reality dh falling asleep isn't his issue, it's mine . how do i deal with it?? who knows??
What things bring back childhood memories/feelings for you?